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What have I done?
What have I done? I've tried a little "social experiment" with my profile lately. I have always just used the profile to meet women or couples. I might have met a single male once or twice but those two gentlemen were exceptions to the rule. A few days ago I turned my profile on to look at guys. I also turned on the IM and actually answered a few. Oh my. How interesting. I have mixed feelings on the result. As I say on my profile, I'm a different person. 5 years ago, when I was here before, I would have been like a in a candy store. I have had sooooo many responses I had to reboot my phone from the alerts. Some very sexy younger men.... finely chiseled bodies with tattoos. A few older men with well written profiles and equally intriguing messages. An incredibly sexy chocolate couple. I have exchanged numbers and texted with a few but...with the exception of a fellow Whovian...and a very distant gentleman ... I'm just not as interested as I want to be. It's been three years and as much as I crave the touch of another... I have met two people in the real world that I am most interested in. One male, one female, both distant in different ways. The male, my gentleman cowboy/biker, send mixed signals to a blind signal reader.I treasure our conversational squirrel hunts fueled by 4:20 pipe hits and filled with laughter. I melt when he simply says "Yes Ma'am" in his sexy deep country voice. I want to kiss him so badly but...red haired waitress. The female, a businesswoman/bar owner. I noticed her the first and only other time I went to her club.At the time I know she was in a relationship but that was 3ish years ago and I was dating someone at the time. I didn't actually meet her until a few weeks back when I joined old friends for dinner at her bar. They frequent the lesbian bar she owns and have known her for years. She and I spent half the evening just talking... a mini- conversational squirrel hunt. Her parting hug was...extended. I'll be making the drive again just to see if this might be a mutual interest thing. Remember, I have NO GAME!! So here is the thing, I have spent the last twelve years, since my divorce, avoiding emotional attachments. if I sensed a case of "The Feels" starting to catch...on either side...I ran. I'm tired of running. I am a strong independent woman who has carried a thick coat of armor around my heart/mind/soul. Armor get's heavy. Do I take a chance and see if anything develops with one of the wonderful people I've connected with during my experiment? I hate being self aware. |
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